Thursday, September 30, 2010

week one of parenthood x 2

I really have to use the term 'parenthood' lightly because we've had an army of help--it's more like parent/grandparent-hood. I wouldn't have emerged from my cage of nursing yet if it weren't for the help we've had since arriving home from the hospital, a family of four.


We only stayed one night in the hospital, due to a complication free delivery {minus one snafu, I will later tell a delivery story} and outside of coming home to the most precious Big Brother I've ever known--I too, came home to this...Aunt Lu.

My best. She drove all the way from Dallas--for the day--JR had known the whole time, only to surprise me and of course to meet her newest niece. We got to chat/hug/cry for all of 30 mins before she had to get back on the road, but to share that moment with my friend is a never-forget kind of thing in life. Thank you, Lu for somehow always managing to find a way to share in literally, all, of the huge moments in our life. We love you, big.

I only know one way to be, blunt. My blog is my blunt-ness outlet--therefore, I must keep it real and say that JR and I had many a'conversation about how on earth we could love this new baby as much as we love our Hudson Bear. With your first, it is as if your heart will burst if you could even fathom loving them anymore than you do...I sincerely worried that I wouldn't have enough to go around for both of my babies. I felt shamed to even think the thoughts of such, but it was a true concern of mine. How very wrong I was. How very wrong, we both were.

You, Belle Monroe are perfect. You were Made for us. You were meant to be ours--Daddy's, Momma's, and Hudson's. From the minute I heard you cry, and Daddy put you in my arms it was as if my heart quadrupled in size within an instant and my Mommy heart instantly fell in love, like, obsession and adoration with both of my babies. Your Daddy gazes at you, and is already wrapped around that itty bitty skinny pinky of yours. I'm not sure I've seen him gaze much, maybe at your Momma some :) but sweet baby, he is yours. All yours.

You've got a Brother Bear, whom has yet to fully understand who you are/what you are--but we've caught him a few times sneaking you a kiss and peeking over your bassinet when he hears you cry. Little do you both know, you've now met the best friend of your life. My two babies, you will both love each other more than your tiny minds can even understand right now--and that is a thought that brings me to tears.

Momma. I'm your Momma. A momma to a baby girl. Growing up, I always imagined myself a mommy to three boys. Why? No clue. Never, never saw nor could see myself a mommy to a girl. After growing you, and now knowing you I cannot bear to think back to a life without you. My daughter, you are a gift to me and to our family--but have opened up a whole new side of my understanding of being a mother and an even greater appreciation of my own.

You are beautiful beyond words, and my second Sooner baby. This time, a Sooner babydoll--one I can put bows on for gameday :) a small dream of mine.

I'm able to nurse you, and that in and of itself has been a miraculous time spent with you. I know now how quickly my baby will grow and I look forward to those moments I spent attached to you. Even the 3am moments, believe it or not...I love knowing that it is me, that nourishes you.

A week, documented of your first week of life Miss Monroe. What a week, and what a joy it's been introducing you to the world. On to week two of loving you, baby girl.

{and a last funny, of how I found you in the car after your first dr's appt}

19 comments:

Sweet Simplicity said...

She is beautiful! You have such a sweet way of documenting your love for your little ones. I love reading about it.

Lindsay said...

She is perfection Natalie. I Love all the photos, but that last one is classic...It happened one too many times over here :) Hugs to you!

Elaine said...

She is beautiful! She has perfect little baby doll lips. Congratulations!

Lindsey said...

She is perfect! i love the pictures as a family of 4. congratulations again!

Sarah said...

She is absolutely breath taking!! Congrats, on your 2 beautiful babies. I have loved reading this post. I am expecting my second and I have had the same feelings about love as well. So great to hear how it is the exact same.

Courtney said...

What a beautiful post, it brought me to tears!

mama faith said...

Oh honey. This is a beautiful post! Enjoy these first weeks as a family of 4. They will fly by!

StephG said...

What a sweet post! Belle is just precious! And you look amazing in that top picture - I would not believe you have a 1 week old sweet baby!

The Neaves' said...

I wouldn't have missed it:) She's absolutely perfect. Even though the time was short, I am sure glad you are only a short drive away this time around! Plus, while waiting for you to be home I got to spend some quality time with that sweet boy of yours!! love you!!

KateB said...

she is perfect!

Tiffany said...

Belle is beautiful just like her name! Now your family is complete!

Kelli said...

Beautiful little girl! They are just the best, aren't they?!

ANDREA said...

CONGRATULATIONS! What a gorgeous baby girl to add to your beautiful family. I absolutely love the pictures! Have an amazing time loving on your growing family!

Mama Dub said...

What a DOLL! Literally. She is so angelic. Enjoy her, because as you mentioned... we now know how fast they grow up. Cherish every moment. Congrats again!

The Drama Mama said...

OMG, what a beautiful post for your new baby girl! And the last picture...hilarious! Still thinking and praying for you guys!

ps...I haven't forgotten about the blog - coming soon! ;)

The Taliaferro's said...

nat love the post. yes belle is beautiful beyond words and just perfect. quick question. when camden shows up can i just call you and tell you my thoughts and you blog for us. loveing your family of four posts.

Brit said...

omg. you made my hormones get the best of me and I cried and cried. Thanks for your insight of being a mom of 2 babes. I can't imagine. She IS perfect. You have officially given me baby fever. Now I'm going to need a labor and delivery story soon! Oh how your sweet family is just perfect! I'm so happy for you nat!

Jessica said...

Precious post! I am in tears because I have all of those exact feelings with my baby boy & girl! They are already best friends. Enjoy your new family of 4!

Life at the White House said...

Sweet friend-

I absolutely loved reading this! I can so very much relate to the part about brothers/sisters and the lifetime best friend! Such a blessing....one of my life's greatest!

You pull of this momma thing really, REALLY well. Teach me your ways - I'm not TOO far behind ya! :)

CONGRATS to you and your precious Sooner Fam! xoxox